Saturday, March 30, 2013

Lenten mussings...



The Lenten season can bring a lot of realizations especially what one has been spoiling one's own "gusto"... literally am starving and been starving coz despite the rocketing buying power, the streets are empty of the gastronomically enticing stuff... alright! Time to think back and rethink... check on some friends from my wall till I pass by some visually palatable wholesale restaurant pages... darn! don't know whether I have lost my Franciscan ways or simply have adapted to my new world long enough to complain about food... where can you buy so much wasted food for 100 bucks? so many options but most of them are crap! yeah! try it yourself, by 2AM you'll get 2 viands a side dish and a bowl of rice just about 100 bucks! Here’s a bit of what I got::

I bought kare-kare thinking that of GeeWan’s (I badly miss Naga!!!)and palabok almost tasting the one from Taguig or the one I had in Calabanga, Cam Sur.. or at least close… to my dismay all of them were not only close to spoiling but tasted NOTHING! It’s not customary of me to bring extra cash or card when I go to work so I couldn’t buy anything else (beyond my daily budget) besides I was starving real big (and I know that my stomach keeps its Franciscan ways and wouldn’t complain even if the food is spoiled)… I still believed that it is never good wasting food (many starve to death of hunger) so I mustered the whole thing convincing myself that it could be my share penance after not doing any for quite a while.
It was just disheartening that when I gave it the second chance the next time but chose a different stall – I got a lasagna made of a very thick pasta with ground meat and some melted cheese for toppings and guess what(?) – also spoiled only at 2 AM! (the food is set at around midnight and should it not last until well maybe noon at most?!!!) If only Starmark’s is close by or if Greenwich is 24/7!!!

Gee… prudence is also a virtue and one big factor to surviving the urban jungle! I have my values intact and fully guarded but must admit that somehow I had become picky of what virtues put affront…

Buzz my Bumblebee

Hmmmm...the arid coldness of the room
Hush… the deafening silence and the unbearable space
… is killing me except the kitty by himself race
amidst the breaking dawn that slowly loom

Maybe I just got used to the morning talks when I get home… Thought most of them were none sense whining or mere blabbering… but be them sensible or not your week’s absence drives my sanity to the ledge… should I jump to nothingness? Easy… it would make more sense falling to something than nothing… The big city is such a burden and it is more apparent that its loads are not of concern when you are right here by my side…  

“don’t want your photo on my cellphone… I want you here with me…I don’t want your memory in my head… I want you here with me…”

Yeah, someone is singing some nonsense out of me on MTV… The cat plays by himself as I force to sleep while fully awake to the reality of…

...the arid coldness of the room
… the deafening silence and the unbearable space
… is killing me except the kitty by himself race
amidst the breaking dawn that slowly loom